always a foodoholic

18/2/12
So im now on day 4 of my new diet and i have got to say i am loving it, i have never done so much cooking in all my life but the meals are amazing, i just hope it is working, ive never enjoyed a diet before so im worried that im not going to loose tuesday. I have double checked several times and it seems i am doing the diet correctly so tuesday will hold the answers- the proof is in the pudding as they say! The smoking however as not been going so well, im trying i really am but i have relasped a few times, although im smoking  alot less than i ever used too. For the first time i seem happy which as alot of you know as a long term depressive this is a major achievement! Im so hopeful now that maybe i can combat this once and for all, the fat stick woman as gone, but only to be replaced with a new one, cause ive decided my new target is 42 pounds, or 3 stones, hopefully by july. Now this will still make me a fatty but it will make me more chubby and less hippo. I will always be a foodoholic, i will always drool over cakes and chocolate and i will always have a fat arse cause thats just how im built, but i need to resist to think of the long term. It aint going to be easy especially as in 2 short weeks i have sams birthday cake, which means resisiting that but i finally feel back in the zone. And at the moment the zone feels good! xxx