the decision is made

11/2/12
So yesterday i decided i had to join a slimming club, and i have decided that this time its going to be weightcare, there are many reasons ive decided on this one, mainly because it is the only one i havent tried before! Sure they all work but the minute you go off 'plan' the weight goes back on big time, but the other reason is a family member of mine as done this diet and is a huge success story, and i know she will be there to help me come to terms with it. So as from tuesday that will be my new weigh in day and i will write my blog on a tuesday evening from now on instead of in the morning. Im very nervous about it but i feel i need a kick, i am struggling to understand why the diet i am currently on worked so well for me last time and this time its like pulling teeth! Im so nervous about it, its one of those moments that every girl faces i suppose, will i be the biggest one there? will the scales be big enough to weigh me? And lets not forget that i cant strip off there so i am going to have to look scratty and wear the exact same outfit every week so that i know that the clothes weigh exactly the same!
I am also on day 3 of not smoking, i have one of those electronic fags and to be honest it is helping but im still finding it hard, everytime i put the kettle on or go into the itchen full stop i want to light up. Some people have said that i shouldnt try to do both things at once but unfortunatly the time as come when i simply can not afford to smoke, so the choice as been made for me and i couldnt give up the diet cause i know that by the time i have quit the fags i would be the size of a very generous semi detached. I tell you my will power is certainly being tested right now, but there are worse things in the world and i am trying to remember this, i dont want to be bitter i want to be smiley julie, but i also want to be skinny julie, fag free julie........the list goes on xxxx