Back to reality

29/1/12
So last night i went out for a suprise for my niece who is soon to 18, i had a back massage which was lovely and i swear it took the woman twice as long because of my fat but i kept hoping she was moving some of it up to my boobs and not round my legs! It also included a 3 course meal, with lots of bread, pastry and chocolate, I ate it all up and thought i would be in heaven but to be honest i felt so bloated and uncomfortable afterwards i didnt know where to put myself and i drank less than i thought i would, so hey every cloud as a silver lining! This morning i have woke up determined to work off those cheats yesterday and im trying to figure out how to do it, it looks so cold and icy outside and im wondering if we will get the snow they keep on about, i can still only manage to jog to 3 lamposts before i have to stop and walk and i must admit the weather is making me wonder whether i will even make it to the 4th lampost, im such a wimp!
last night tho i realised even more what an addict i am to chocolate! With the after dinner coffee we had a plate of roses chocolates to share and as everyone started asking which chocolate were which i proudly named every variety on the plate with a description! Now i thought this was normal! I thought everyone knew which chocolates were which in every tin without the use of he little 'menu'. By the looks of suprise i would guess not! So there it is official chocolate is my demon, my heroin and a very well educated demon at that! I suddenly realised this is what my life as become, if i was to ever go on mastermind then chocolate would certainly be my specialised subject and you know my fat arse would win it! So my aim for this week, while being extremly dedicated to my diet is to research carrots then maybe just maybe my body will think i love them as much as caramel kegs....mmmm caramel kegs...... xxx